As I listen to myself, I truly ask what I want. I think I just want others to treat me like how they treat others. No one asks me how I am doing except for 2 people only after I verbally say I feel like shit. Everyone else is fake, liars, and against you. They will try to fuck you over, no matter what. I am tired of it. I choose the day, one damp and gray. All because I am sick.